all things must be given up on eventually (except this site)
I haven't been updating the website much recently. At least not like I was. It's not burnout, I'm just powering down. My ADHD's panopticon gaze is shifting away from webdev and blogging and banjo-playing, and back towards digital art. Even now as I hyperfixate on painting, I can feel it shifting still in the direction of photography and cycling.
This is my life: I flow in and out of several different hobbies, making incremental progress in each of them during their phase. I can't tell how long the phases will last anymore than someone with a wet finger can tell how long the wind will continue to blow from the south. All I can do is enjoy the breeze. These are the times, when I observe myself being pulled from one fixation to the next, that I question why I can't do anything about it. The trick is that I can want to keep drawing, keep writing, keep photographing, keep coding, keep cycling, keep sewing, keep playing, but once my mind has turned the page, neither the forces of heaven nor hell can flip it back.
I'm being swept away by the torrents of my own attention span. It's all I can do to keep my head above the water.